Hey, guys! Friday already? I feel like time is flying these days. I’d originally planned for today’s post to be about my personal story of finding Jesus, but I just didn’t get around to it. Another week, I suppose.
A Martha Mindset
The past few weeks have been pretty busy for me. The blog is growing and growing (which is an awesome answer to prayer!), but my time is slowly being directed to many other things. Rather – I let time become dictated by all this busyness.
After a long day when I was probably feeling frustrated at all that I hadn’t gotten done or all that I still had to do, I curled up in bed and grabbed what is my night-time devotional. The book is called It’s a Wonderful Imperfect Life. The tagline is ”Devotional readings for women who strive too hard to make it all just right.” Aka – a book made for MY SOUL.
The devotional I read that night was called “Sitting with Jesus,” and referenced Luke 10:41-42, which says:
“‘Martha,’ the Lord answered, ‘You are worried and upset about many things, but one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.’”
If you’re not familiar with the story, Jesus and his disciples come to Martha & Mary’s house (sisters). Martha is all worried about preparing dinner and making sure the guests are comfortable. Martha becomes resentful of Mary, who is just chillin’ at Jesus’ feet, in awe of Him, listening to His teachings. Martha thinks (like I so often do), How can you just be sitting there, Mary? Can’t you see all the work that demands to be done? And I’m the only one doing it!
But the Lord quickly steps in and turns her thinking around. Luke 10:41-42 is the Lord’s rebuke to Martha, kindly telling her that she is in fact wrong. Her to-do list and tasks that she calls “demands” are actually the wrong focus. And after reading that, my goodness, did my heart feel like a crazy Martha-like trying-too-hard FOOL!
But we all get like this, don’t we? Chasing, chasing, chasing. Being unhappy. Praying for things to magically be easier. My focus is so often on tasks, what I do, making “progress” in so many areas of my life. But the Lord says only one thing is needed: sitting with Jesus.
What this means to me is completely putting aside the tasks that “demand” my attention in exchange for time that fills me, restores me, renews me, and changes me – time sitting with Jesus. The concept of prayer, studying the Bible, and giving your heart to the Lord doesn’t really seem mind-boggling, but the human soul and it’s inner workings, I find, often make it downright near impossible to actually get around to doing any of that in a way that truly fulfills.
Anyone can read their Bible every day. Anyone can pray once or twice a day. But letting your guard down for Jesus to enter? Letting go of other tasks that you so desperately desire or wish you had time to do in exchange for being so passive to just sit? Giving up your pride so Jesus can change you? Putting time with Jesus before anything else because you know it’s the right choice? That is hard. And yet, that is exactly what He calls me to do more and more.
What’s more – the Lord says that this choice is better than Martha’s choice of busyness & worry. Obviously, when I think about it that way, worry and over-busying myself is never the right choice. Yet in my I-need-to-be-productive mindset, that is often the most appealing choice. Yet in reality, that choice continues to suck the joy of Jesus right out of my life and really just draws me more into myself and away from Jesus.
The end of that devotional prompted me to remember a time I enjoyed sitting with Jesus. I instantly thought of a time I was memorizing scripture. I really wanted to “get” the verses. I took all distractions away and retired to my bedroom. I lit one candle and laid my Bible open on me while I laid down to read the verses over and over. I read it to myself. And then started reading it out loud. I felt just by saying it over and over that I began to understand the words and let the meaning soak into me.
I was completely focused on Jesus at this time, not letting a single distraction in. And now Psalm 23 – my favorite Psalm – is soaked into my heart forever with the lasting impression of sitting with Jesus.
To have that feeling again, sometimes I think, I would do anything. What’s funny is that I don’t have to do just anything, though.
I just have to sit with Him.
Questions for You:
- Do you struggle with being addicted-to-action? How do you cope with always wanting to be busy?
- What’s your favorite way to “sit with Jesus?”